Ok, today I am feeling a little foggy. I did yesterday, too, but just thought it was from the weekend. We will see...
Having trouble reading anything lately, even things that interest me.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Friday, July 31, 2009
Thank you!
I just want to thank Heather, Holly & Amy who are kind enough to share their experiences with me.
Day 5
Again, so far, so good. Now the question is to medicate or not for the weekend. I think I will for now while my body adjusts to the meds. Maybe I can work on getting my house clean and organized... I'm glad this week has been calm at work, too.
Anyone put there reading this - what are your favorite tools to use to help everyday life?
Now I worry about my daughter and what she will inherit from me (and her father), genetically - will she have his diabetes? will she have my ADD? Only time will tell.
The more I learn about this - disease, affliction, condition (not sure of the right word), the more I have to laugh about myself and the more I understand my idiosyncrasies. Not that everything can be blamed on ADD, but it is as much a part of me as my brown hair. One of my major issues at my last job (which I left for a better position) was that I talked to everyone in cubeland too much - I was a distraction... Of course, the employer didn't really handle it well and never told me it was an issue until I questioned my pay rate. Another issue was that my cube was in a constant state of disaster. Some idiot actually left me an anonymous note one day (which infuriated me) about how embarassing my messy cube was. I did talk to my boss & the partners and they had no issue with my cube's state because they knew what work I had going on.
Speaking of workload, when I did ask for a pay increase, one of the partners said he couldn't believe the amount of work I accomplished while working part time. I think this success had to do with the pace of the work. Trust me, I still had deadline issues, just managed to work thru them because I had to give my work to someone else to draft and I did not want to screw over that person.
Come to think of it, I think at least one of the partners at my last firm is ADD (possibly 2) and my current VP is... All VERY intelligent men with attention and deadline issues who have made things work for them.
Anyone put there reading this - what are your favorite tools to use to help everyday life?
Now I worry about my daughter and what she will inherit from me (and her father), genetically - will she have his diabetes? will she have my ADD? Only time will tell.
The more I learn about this - disease, affliction, condition (not sure of the right word), the more I have to laugh about myself and the more I understand my idiosyncrasies. Not that everything can be blamed on ADD, but it is as much a part of me as my brown hair. One of my major issues at my last job (which I left for a better position) was that I talked to everyone in cubeland too much - I was a distraction... Of course, the employer didn't really handle it well and never told me it was an issue until I questioned my pay rate. Another issue was that my cube was in a constant state of disaster. Some idiot actually left me an anonymous note one day (which infuriated me) about how embarassing my messy cube was. I did talk to my boss & the partners and they had no issue with my cube's state because they knew what work I had going on.
Speaking of workload, when I did ask for a pay increase, one of the partners said he couldn't believe the amount of work I accomplished while working part time. I think this success had to do with the pace of the work. Trust me, I still had deadline issues, just managed to work thru them because I had to give my work to someone else to draft and I did not want to screw over that person.
Come to think of it, I think at least one of the partners at my last firm is ADD (possibly 2) and my current VP is... All VERY intelligent men with attention and deadline issues who have made things work for them.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Day 3 - Ritalin
Still feel pretty clear today. I asked my hubby if he thought the meds made any difference and he said "I don't think you need meds." Hmm, wonder if there is any ADD "simulator" out there where I can send him thru the paces of my brain. I don't feel as much compulsion to distract. As much as I love the internet, I hate it, too. It brings me friends and info, but sucks up tons of time sometimes... Moderation (as with everything) is key.
Otherwise, pretty normal day, work, home, dinner, bed...
Otherwise, pretty normal day, work, home, dinner, bed...
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Day 2 - Ritalin +
Today I decided to take the afternoon dose because I did start to feel fuzzy yesterday afternoon. I also went to the library last night to try and read up on this affliction. Love the book titles "You Mean I'm not Lazy, Stupid or Crazy?" is my favorite title so far. Haven't had a chance to do more than glance in the book yet, but it looks good (just an older edition).
I am curious how to balance things. I still want to be me, just a more focused version. I still want to be aware of things around me and be able to react quickly and take a lot of things in, but I want to be able to complete a task - work project, clean the kitchen, etc.
I am curious how to balance things. I still want to be me, just a more focused version. I still want to be aware of things around me and be able to react quickly and take a lot of things in, but I want to be able to complete a task - work project, clean the kitchen, etc.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Day 1 - Ritalin
Ok, today is Day 1 on Ritalin. I do feel "clearer", but it's hard to say if it is the drugs or just a good day.
Who am I? I'm a mid-thirties mom who was just recently diagnosed with ADD/ADHD. My doctor doesn't really know the difference, but she was more than happy to write me an Rx to make it go away. I think I've had this my whole life, but it has recently started to REALLY effect my job and cause me to miss a ton of deadline and just let people down in general. Looking back, I think it has always been there. My parents & I used to have horrific fights about homework and I used to pull all-nighters to get things done. It doesn't work now that I am a professional and I have people counting on me. So, I've decided to get help.
This is an interesting disease with a lot of stigma... I don't really have the "hyper-active" part, but I have issues with deadlines and getting started and then that causes anxiety and it gets worse from there. My brain gets paralyzed and fuzzy and I don't know where to start. Luckily, I know I am smart and capable of anything I put my mind to, but sometimes I just can't put my mind to things...
Welcome to my Blog. I've decided to write this to help myself document my progress and maybe even help someone else who might be in my shoes.
I have to thank my friend who, as an attorney, was diagnosed later in life, and has inspired me to get help.
Who am I? I'm a mid-thirties mom who was just recently diagnosed with ADD/ADHD. My doctor doesn't really know the difference, but she was more than happy to write me an Rx to make it go away. I think I've had this my whole life, but it has recently started to REALLY effect my job and cause me to miss a ton of deadline and just let people down in general. Looking back, I think it has always been there. My parents & I used to have horrific fights about homework and I used to pull all-nighters to get things done. It doesn't work now that I am a professional and I have people counting on me. So, I've decided to get help.
This is an interesting disease with a lot of stigma... I don't really have the "hyper-active" part, but I have issues with deadlines and getting started and then that causes anxiety and it gets worse from there. My brain gets paralyzed and fuzzy and I don't know where to start. Luckily, I know I am smart and capable of anything I put my mind to, but sometimes I just can't put my mind to things...
Welcome to my Blog. I've decided to write this to help myself document my progress and maybe even help someone else who might be in my shoes.
I have to thank my friend who, as an attorney, was diagnosed later in life, and has inspired me to get help.
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